I am not sure when it happened, but there’s been a shift again. This morning, I feel it more than ever.
Yes it has something to do with turning 50 in a couple of days. But, that’s not all of it.
The shift has to do with de-junkifying my life.
Taking a hard look at who’s in it, and who’s not. Thinking about what I’m doing, how I’m spending my days and who I’m spending them with.
Removing the naysayers, peeling away the negative Nancy’s and resisting the urge to fill up the friendship cupboard with more of the same.
It started with Facebook, with a few relatives who tend to make snarpy comments and/or comment on my commenting. Whatever. I started out meekly, like a playground survivor, quietly hiding them from my posts and page. Today I took control and hit the “unfriend” button.
I can’t tell you how liberating that feels.
I used my own logic: Friends don’t act like this. Not anyone I want to be friends with anyways.
Deleted – done – gone — ahhh.
It’s happened in our personal life, too.
I’ve said no to things I don’t want to do. I’ve stopped doing for everyone.
I’ve. Just. Stopped.
It’s not about getting older and being tired and losing interest. It’s about getting older and realizing I am interested and interesting and that I don’t have to do it all to be loved.
I don’t have to justify who I am or wonder if someone likes me for me and not just what I will do for them.
I like me for me and finally, finally, that’s enough.
Life. It’s something to look forward to.
“I like who I am now. Other people may not. I’m comfortable. I feel freer now. I don’t want growing older to matter to me.” ― Meryl Streep
Have you ever experienced a shift like this?